As I have been growing and learning over the past years, have heard many times that when you are on the correct path of this Buddhist practice you may encounter the three obstacles and four Devils. And while I would nod and agree I tended to think I was personally creating my obstacles and was personally my own devil. I knew that my own tendencies often sabotaged me and that if I could only control them I would eliminate them.
I looked at everything negative going on as a test and that with perseverance and self control I would put the bad parts of me behind and then I could be victorious. Get rid of your old habits, your old thinking patterns, your old feelings and find new ones. That is what it means to be a winner.
In the past couple of weeks I am viewing the obstacles and Devils I am facing differently. What I have been dealing with is part of strengthening my faith not testing it. I don't need to be someone else or do something else. I really need to trust myself and remain confident that I am the person I am intended to be. What I am realizing is that experiencing a hardship is what allows me to bring out wisdom, courage and compassion for myself and others.
The easy part for me is the ability to be there for others. The struggle I have had is to be there for me.
After studying the Teachings for Victory by "Sensei", it opened my eyes to the fact that I have been given the opportunity to show my faith and remain true to myself. This is not a test.....this is life and it is one of absolute happiness that can only be lived by living.
Friday, October 16, 2015
Saturday, October 3, 2015
If not now, When.....
I will officially be unemployed on Friday, the 9th. While I know that part of it is a result of my karmic tendencies to create unhealthy work situations, what I am so happy about is that I took the courage to say enough....
What I am able to do this time is admit that I have contributed to causing this situation and therefore can take responsibility to know that it has reached a place that cannot be fixed. In the past I would hang in there forever, continue to blame the other person, be the victim and then leave in shame. This time I know that I am no longer committed to the job, the company and even the city I live in and that needs to change.
Buddhism is part of every day. It is not just bringing it out when we are in trouble, not just having faith when facing adversity. Buddhism is about creating a life of absolute happiness. Too often in the past, I waited for it to come to me.....even though I knew that I was responsible for creating it.
Having the courage to remove myself from a life that I no longer want is the first step. It is my time, NOW to define what a healthy and happy life looks like. It my time NOW to take action to put myself in the right place to have a life condition of happiness. It is my time NOW, to prove to others that having faith and taking action as part of my Buddhist practice is what will lead me to my happy life.
I am doing this NOW, and I know that with the Gohonzon I will accomplish my goals and continue in this human revolution.
What I am able to do this time is admit that I have contributed to causing this situation and therefore can take responsibility to know that it has reached a place that cannot be fixed. In the past I would hang in there forever, continue to blame the other person, be the victim and then leave in shame. This time I know that I am no longer committed to the job, the company and even the city I live in and that needs to change.
Buddhism is part of every day. It is not just bringing it out when we are in trouble, not just having faith when facing adversity. Buddhism is about creating a life of absolute happiness. Too often in the past, I waited for it to come to me.....even though I knew that I was responsible for creating it.
Having the courage to remove myself from a life that I no longer want is the first step. It is my time, NOW to define what a healthy and happy life looks like. It my time NOW to take action to put myself in the right place to have a life condition of happiness. It is my time NOW, to prove to others that having faith and taking action as part of my Buddhist practice is what will lead me to my happy life.
I am doing this NOW, and I know that with the Gohonzon I will accomplish my goals and continue in this human revolution.
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