It has been awhile since I posted on this blog...........not because I have not had some aha moments, not because I am not experiencing my human revolution, but mostly because I am busy and using this practice in the busy and hecticness of my life.
I have often thought and knew that while chanting and saying Gonyo I was able to put some calm and order into my life. In the past few weeks, that calm and order is there, but it is fleeting in a good way. I am still chanting my 1/2 hour every morning and doing Gonyo. I and am 88% consistent chanting every evening and doing Gonyo. However in the past, I have used these moments to quiet me, to put things in a momentary peaceful state and felt that I has achieved what was meant to be.
How wrong and right I am.
Sometimes our life condition allows us to take a respite at different times in the day where we can calmly look at what is going on in our lives. We can be thankful for the small victories and wins and know that we are moving in a positive direction. However at other times, (and this is my current life condition) it is not about having a consistent and predictable existence, but about how to enjoy and have peace in all of the chaos and energy that is flowing.
As I am trying to determine what "pre-tirement" is and looks like for me, I have tried to make the most of each day. I have tried to catch up on things that I intended to do one day and I am trying to enjoy each moment as it comes my way. As I face each event or situation I am okay with a bit of self examination and determining if I am growing, giving or getting in the process.
My chanting each morning and night is more centered around what being the best and bringing out my Buddha nature look like. I know my next step is to determine what I want and take action..........but I am finding that for the moment, living in the action and determining me is a needed step too.
As long as it is a few steps - and it does not become a march or walk without a direction or purpose.
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